My Spiral Journey

As I write this I am sitting in California sitting amongst the succulents sipping my tea in the foggy morning. Two days ago I finished an epic week supporting 20 other people from the United States in their own journeys of becoming Spiral Practitioners. This was the first time this modality was taught in the United States.

Sounds like no big deal right? Actually, it is. When I think about the many threads that had to intertwine for all of us to come together, my head spins. When I think about my own journey in just the last year I shake my head in disbelief.

I am learning that is what the Spiral does, it speeds everything up, in a good way.

Let's go back to a year ago- it's July 2018. My husband, who supported us financially, was no longer working. As he likes to say he was "set free". In April he decided he needed 6 months to decompress, figure out his next steps, and recover from the loss of his job. I went into a tailspin. To cope, I started overworking and overextending myself.

As he became more relaxed, I became more stressed. I stressed about everything: money, work, our marriage, our future, what he would do for work, if I could make my business more profitable to support us, pretty much anything and everything. I took on more clients than I could handle. With the added stress I started to decline. I became stressed, unhappy, and unhealthy.

By August 2018 Ty had made it clear he was not going back to work as a sales rep (his former career). He had found a book called "Clear Your Shit" and he had started "The Spiral" with a practitioner in Australia. Over his own personal 8 week Spiral journey he knew his career was going to change and that he wanted to offer this work to athletes. When he told me this I thought he was crazy. Literally lost his mind crazy.

I was uncertain the Ty could transition from the sales world to this kind of work and make a living from it. Bodywork, intuition, energy work- that's my area. I continued to stress, over-work, and argue with Ty about our unknown future. I also decided if this was going to be his "new job", I had better go through the Spiral too to see what it was all about.

I contacted his same practitioner and started my 8 week Spiral September 2018. The first three weeks I thought nothing was happening. I was angry I had paid money and all the shifts Ty said were happening to him were not happening to me. I thought it was a waste and a spoof. After my 4th session, which focuses on the heart chakra, my world was rocked.

So much grief that I had held in my whole life came pouring out of my unblocked heart. The stress of my marriage, my business, my unknown future, plus some personal issues I was going through with friends, it was all too much. I sobbed for days. Sometimes I would cry and have no idea why. I finally let the grief and stress I had been holding go. I knew this modality was working and I knew it had cracked something open.

By week 6, which is focused around vision, I too had decided I would somehow incorporate this into my already established bodywork business. Just like Ty, I decided I needed to go to Australia to become a practitioner in this modality.

By the end of October I had decided to go to Australia, take a 6 month intensive facilitation/coaching program, and a year long family constellation certification program, and hire a business coach. When deciding, I would tune into my now very open heart and ask, "should I do this?" and always do as my heart would say.

Through November I continued to stress about Ty, our marriage, my practice, our finances but something had shifted. I was learning my boundaries. I was learning how to express myself and my needs. I was learning to trust myself. I started toying with the idea that really everything is unknown so I started questioning, "why am I trying to control everything?", "what if I just surrender?", "what if my vision is different than I thought it would be?"

I started to slow down at work and take less clients. I started to listen to Ty when he said he wanted to do this for work. We both started intensive therapy (let's be honest: no one can do any sort of transformational work on their own. It takes a team of multiple practitioners taking multiple perspectives and angles). We each started working on us as individuals and us as a married collective.

I truly believe all of this is only possible from my own 8 week Spiral. Each week focuses on a chakra and three core emotions. Once those core emotions are released things in life start to shift and quickly. It feels like I was wearing really foggy goggles. Those goggles represented deep conditioning and fear to show up in the world as me. They held fear of being myself and being rejected. They held the fear of loving myself deeply for who I am. The Spiral allowed me to take off my goggles and set them aside. Now I get to see the world clearly and move in a direction with clarity. I know no matter what happens I have the strength I need to take care of myself and be ok. I am learning to surrender and trust in the unknown. What Ty and I have done in a year takes people lifetimes.

The Spiral is a tool that clears conditioning quickly. As the creator Dane says, "I was sick of layers of the onion, I wanted a tool that could blow up the entire onion". This work finds the core and dismantles it. Depending on how deep the emotion or conditioning, different things shift for different people.

It won't make you a rockstar overnight. It accelerates what you are already good at doing and helps you see areas where you could improve slowly over time. That is also why things shift differently for different people. It is also a modality that teaches you the tools to clear yourself. Everything you need to show up the way you want to is in your hands.

Reflecting back on my last year this morning I feel gratitude. Gratitude for Ty and finding this modality. Gratitude for my Spiral practitioner in guiding me through my own process. Gratitude for Dane for making this work available to the world and Zapheria who saw the vision of teaching this in America.

So yea, it's only been a year. I have blown up a few onions and am in the process of getting more clear on my vision every day. I've accelerated my growth and learned to really listen to my now very open heart. I know without a doubt you can do the same if you're ready to blow up a few of your onions too.